three day nv go scl le n no one miss me haiz.... so sad of me hor nvm la....k i nv go scl cos i got mc yea is not cos i prone scl k ya....mc until 30 le dunno wan go scl tmw ma hu can tel me should i go scl tmw ma nvm i go cos i tel my jie tat i will go scl tmw ya if not i will be board till death ah ya....
haha my bday is over le but i still got my bday week yea......yesterday i was so happy la thnks 2 yuan de renna n my convip ya thnks to them they celebrate my bday 4 me yea .... clap hand clap hand haha..... gd rite so happy man they give me a lot of surprise haha i love it man even nv go to sentosa but nvm celebrate wif them go where oso happy la haha....... thnks 4 ur present ya.... happy all the way yea.....
walao ah ................ i told him tat she is not in le i say so many time le thn he still scold me say wat i ask him hu is he i where got ask lor y everytime like tis de y just now oso like tis lor argh since tat day i came bck from encounter everything change lor today alr got three thing is not my fault they come n scold me k fine i SHUT UP K since i m e templer of god i shut up let u all scold all u wan k fine..... if 1 day i cunt take it rite i tell u i sure li jai co zao de lor wan try me come lor i m not scare lor...... k
how ah arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i will like shorting arghhhhh hu can really noe wat i m thinkingn now ah.......... i got so many problem now la how hu can help me arghhhhh how.......!!!!!!! how hu can help arghhhhhhhhh ......i wan shot arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hu can just take a knife n kill me now faster i cunt take it le everythign seem like coming bck liao argh i wan do wateer i wan arghhhhhhhh how ah i feel very trouble now arghhhhhhhhhh how can help me how can noe wat is happening to me now n tell me wat i should do HOW i wan cry liao le la...... ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.................... ah ya wtaever la k
still got 7 and a half more is my bday le..... so scare sia not excited at all lor cos haiz.... no one celebrate my bday 4 me haiz... grace tmw got bbq n drill lycia n juntian got ndp thn very tired ya.... thn the rest of my jie got "O" and "N" level thn need to study ya so sad rite ah bo the rest dun remember my bday le haiz.... watever la thn family member le all not free so haiz.... dunno le mayb i will b alone celebrate my bday lor thn nvm lor since all not free or forget my bday liao le thn nvm la mayb i really need to be alone n do soul searcing ba haiz.... watever la thn all e bday present i wil not take except for my family member ya so no need to buy le ya esther thnks 4 ur bday present ya thnks alot......
wat a lonley bday i have...... haiz happy tat i m lonely on my bday ya...... clap hand clap hand yea.... ah nvm just leave me alone ya... i just need to b alone..... :) i m alrite
i'm bck yea!!! haha glad to c me ma??? e old stephanie was dead n e new stephanie has come alive yea!! aman ..... k let me share wat i have learnt n go through in encounter weekend k.... 16-18 june is encounter weekend ya... thn my guide is grace ya.... whn we went to e place where we are staying rite is at nus ya very cool la there love it sia... k thn went 4 our session 1.. they show us 1 video clip called " the crossing"... i can say tat i dun enjoy myself alot e first day de ya cos dunno le just felt tat i m alone lor haiz... very wat lor ya..... thn i tell u all huh all of us got a personal room le cool rite haha i m so happy la tat i got personal room to myself haha..... :) 2 day.... is hu is GOD ya cool le i learnt alot aot of thign from here lor come let me share a litter bit our heavenly father will not b angry wif us, will not abusive us and will not absent.... he will still hug us u noe n i get a heavenly hug ya feel so different lor dunno le mayb cos hug plus prayer tat make me feel different lor dunno le tat kind of feeling is like whn u r down very down rite thn god come n comfort u n healing u lor ya i feel so..... ya dunno how 2 say ya.... tell u all ah i nv breakdown in front of god b4 le thn whn i went for encounter rite i breakdown b4 god twice le.... ya cos god wan me 2 tell him all my troubles ma mayb ba.... thn went for sin session ya nth lor just let us noe more abt sin so tat we wont do it lor ya.... nth much to say abt it lor thn went 4 lunch grace wan all of us in her group de to share wat we had learnt n feel n thoughts lor but i dunno how to share wif a big group of ppl ma so i kept quite lor thn grace ask me Q i ans lor ya dunno le i can share wif grace but i cunt share wif others le but i dun wan let grae noe le ah ya no one noe wat i m thinkling now la only god noes ya jie sry is not i dun wan share but i just cunt open up my mouth to share wif all of them ya sry..... games k lor ya th at mite le i cut it short la k we got worship thn we have to get rid of all our sin list ya wa breakdown again lor cos i got too much thing in my heart le ya thn very hard 4 me to 4give myself lor thn like tis lor i just felt tat i m very guilty ya..... dun wan say so much here ya.... thn aft tat went to tear away my sin list thn went bck to dance room i felt tat i can fly le haha so happy tat my heart is pure again ya... thn i tel god if he wan me to share rite he wil tel me de ya so i believe tat now god dun wan me to share first ya..... i will wait till god wan me to share thn i share ya aman.... third day everyone recieve a gift from god but me i very special from others de i oso got gift but is very special my gift is PEACE IN MY HEART haha cool rite ya i need most in peace in my heart so god have given me tis peace ya aman.... dun feel like gg home lor cos i noe tat all the things will come bck again lor scare tat only lor haiz.... hope tat it wont lor haiz.... watever la pray 2 e lord lor ya.... like tis lor no more liao le
yesterday come back from "camp" le haha.... went to ms kau house to stay over nite so cool rite haha.... got 16 ppl stay under 1 roof haha see so many ppl hor haha very fun le.... thn whn everyone bath le hor thn me,gace n yuan de order mac so gd rite haha thn we eat lor so nice man cos i m hungry ma.... thn nth liao lor nth to tell u all leh haiz.... but i dun like sunday i was like half breakdown lor haiz.... dun wan say liao le la thn after church i was too tired le so i went hm n slp thn woke up whn grace msg me thn slp at 4 plus lor ya chat wif ..... until 4 plus thn i cunt take it le so tired thn went to slp thn today woke up at 3 plus lor ya....like tis lor jie ah u hor must rest well hor dun let me breakdown k pls dun i cunt take it ah arghhhhhhh kill me ba if u dun wan get well kill me arghhhhh
i m sorry is all abt me tat cause all tis..... sorry...... jie or kur can u ask ppl come down n beat me up??? can u beat me till i die or kill me even faster do it fast n do it quick.... pls i dun wish to live le i wan die now..... i dun wan live without her she dun wan me le..... arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh KILL ME NOW... LET ME DIE NOW.......
I WAN TO BE ALONE JIE MEI NU YER DEAR DI KUR I M SORRY IF I HAVE DONE ANYTHING WORNG TO U TAT MAKE U LIKE TIS...... I M REALLY SORRY..... :.( pls 4give me i have done wrong to all of u sorry if u really lose me thn let it b sorry tats all i can say
lycia i tell u hor u better dun try anything funny hor if u wan do anythign funny rite tell me i do le thn u can do it k i say b4 le i wont let u go b4 me if u wan go b4 me rite i wont forgive myslef de k n i will kill myslef k i wan try me come n try lor i dun mind k...... u better live on i tell u even if u dun need me but i got say i dun need u ma still got grace n other ppl hu need u le u noe ma lycia yam........... i wan go mad le la.....
i cancel all my wish cos i dun wan u all to do wat i wish ya i u dun get me thn let it b dun come n ask me anything i wont say de ya.....................
today pls dun cal me cos i dun wish to tok i scare tat if i ans u all will be hurt by me so pls dun k i dun wish to hurt ppl anymore i have alr hurt 1 liao le n left me liao le i cunt affort to lose anyone of u le so ya 4 my seek pls dun cal me pls i wish to be alone da jie where r u i really need u now...... i think tat song really like me now tat wat i need now ah yyyyyyyyyyyy?????????? i hate NO I HATE THE WORD NO arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh............................. i dun wan no i dun like no i hate no i m mad NOW
*kiss on the ear---------------------"i'mhorny"
*kiss on the cheek------------------"we'refriends"
*kiss on the hand-------------------"i adore you"
*kiss on the neck--------------------"we belongtogether"
*kiss on the shoulder---------------"i want you"
*kiss on the lips----------------------"i loveyou" or "iwant you"
*holding hands-----------------------"we canlearn tolove each other"
*a wink---------------------------------"Let's getit on"
*slap on the butt---------------------"thats mine"
*playing with the ear----------------"i can't livewithoutyou"
*holding on tight---------------------"don't letgo"
*looking into each other's eyes---"let's getromantic"
*playing with hair on head---------"tell meyou loveme"
*arms around the waist ------------"i love youtoomuch to let go"
*laughing while kissing--------------"i amcompletleycomfortable w/you"
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yesterday is my estherfez compertition..... haha guess wat we won a SILVER haha..... wa dunno how to tell u my feeling now ah haha damn happy lor haha thn after tat i went slient mood dun ask me y k i wont say de wan noe ah go n read my hp note lor i wrote there n it is whn grace n rui xiang dancing tat time ya haha..... grace n rui xiang you all dance very well ya jia you k bck to my estherfez thing..... tell u all ah we have been pratice hard k all our hard work hor ...... haha nv waste it k we did our best le tat y we can get silver for 2nd coy n 4 GOD yea aman..... wa the key board did not work wa yesterday so many thing tat me me wan faint sia but hang ah we still very relax n go on wif our estherfez thing sia gd man haha thnks god tat he guide us though soomthly ah haha yea happy for all the gals ya.... GALS YOU DID UR BEST LE GD JOB...... haha nth to up date le ya
i change my skin lo haha.......
i hope tat all my wish will come ture ya the most important is tat CONVIP will always happy..... ya
2day have my last pratice for my esther fest compertition..... dun ask me whether i m tired anot k!!!!! if u all wan noe, u all wan noe the truth or fake ans????? truth is I M DEAM TIRED..... fake the ans is i m not tired but i still got alot of energy ya still can pratice on..... but i really wish tat we can have more pratice together u noe ma so tat we on saturday, we wont have any fault or mistake. so tat whn we go down to the stage we wont say or blame each other or ourselves...... it was a tiring day i have today...... ya........ think tats all for my esther fest pratice ba oh ya 2day both of my jie got come down n supoort us yuan ying oso ya lan oso even ms wong came at first i thought tat i will be very scare cos ms wong is comeing down to look at us but attually i m not haha just faking myself only lor haiz..... tis is a great pratice 4 me ya...... thanks everybody 4 comeing to pratice remember to prayer for our team n pls help us prayer can thanks alot i will prayer 4 u all de one word 4 my teammates: trust in the LORD with all your heart, do not be anxious in anything but in everything. God dun wan us to b anxious n worry and the peace of GOD will guide ur heart n mindin everything tat u do ya.... think tats all i wan tell u all ba.... oh still got
GALS JUST DO UR VERY BEST CAN ALREADY WE NEED NOT GET ANY PRICE WE JUST NEED TO DO OUR BEST N LET THE LORD HANDLER THE REST K GAL JIA YOU
DEAR I M SO DEPRESS NOW AH.....
I JUST FEEL LIKE GG TO EAST COAST N SHOUT AH......
WHY UR FAMILY LIKE TIS DE AH......
I WAN GO MAD LE LA AH........
U SAY I HIGH BUT DO U THINK I CAN DUN HIGH WAIT THEY SAY ME AGAIN AH.......
Y I GOT SO MUCH TROUBLE DE AH........
Y I M SO USLESS AH.....
Y I CUNT HELP MY JIE N MEI LE AH.........
WAT TO DO AH......
SAT IS MY PERFORMANCE LE AH.......
WAT SHOULD I DO AH......
WAT TO DO AH..........
WAT GOD WOULD WAN YOU TO AH..............
I WAN GO SEA SIDE NOW AH...............
I DUN WAN GO ALONE AH.............
2day i went to fish farm..... haiz...... sian la 2day i was too busy thinking of my things so i think tis spoil my mood ya.... i was too depress liao le after a thought of a few ppl words i think if i m really bother abt things i must not say out or express out so tat no 1 will worry 4 me ya..... correct so tat u all will think tat i m alrite.... yes i should do tis from today onwards ya..... thks 4 joy31 2day u all are so caring thks didi n jie jie n all my friends n classmate ya..... thanks 4 everything tat u all have done 4 me thank you!!!!! :)
